Why I love

Its been a heavy very heavy day 2.
I wrote this Piece
some time back.
Today, my second day of moving away from a particular unhealthy addiction saw me going through heartache so heavy i almost died.
i tell am kinda counting the days. stuff has been happening. lots of stuff...on all fronts.
And stuff happened. we kissed and made up.
But then I keep asking myself Why I love so hard, people find it easy to hurt- or maybe Why I hurt so easily yet I love so hard.
AM I trying so hard?
Oh well....am posting this post because i cant seem to finish writing it

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