Memoirs

Sometimes we wonder why we get so unhappy. Many a time we want to blame it on someone else, Like Milli Vanilli says, 'Blame it on the rain' and Yes, it has to be someone or something else but not you. Well, here I am, very unhappy, As in Very UNHAPPY. Life sucks, as in it sucks. But one thing is for sure, am not blaming it on anyone else, Not even the rain. I got myself here and I'll have to find a way of getting out. it hurts and hurts so bad, am in love with someone I should not be in love with You know, those un available men? Guys out there talk to me. the ladies who have been there done that, please tell me what i should do. I keep telling myself, I'll wake up in the morning and voila, i won't think about him, I won't call him etc. I have done so much for this relationship and it hurts me that I just cannot treat it as something casual. It started out casually but now I can't help but feel so sad. They say, pray....I pray, I try yes I try to love Jesus

( Tone: loving, closely holding your hands and looking into your eyes) Am one woman who treasures relationships, reason, coz the power of love is one strong force amongst many that keeps my world spinning. Anyway, I always insist that a river can’t rise beyond its source just like we can’t change our past. Life is hard, and only the resilient ones survive. Precisely, that’s why am writing you this note, after a well thought out recap of our lives. (Takes an exasperated breath, then winks passionately) The sky is blue, looks so spectacular. The birds are so free; gracefully doing what they do best while am seated underneath planning my next move. Something tickles my toe, and the image of your smile, somewhat prepared to draw closer and give a deep breathtaking kiss, flashes along my memory line. I think of you, your daily encounters, and for sure there are countless things we took for granted. (Looking and sounding serious, as if engrossed in deep thought ) Did you ever ask yourself, “

I sit there, UMEME has decided am not worth their services anymore. The candle light just can't help me. I need to see my bed, i haven't even had a bite...well i was just about to...its 3 am. had this interesting movie i was watching, and the lights just went off. Wow, am scared, am not even seeing my feet, well, atleast i can feel them. help me out. who supplies better power...reliable that is.

Mornings, are my favorite bits of the day. Take instance today, it' s a Monday. Usually I hate Monday's, but today, it was a different story, very different

Aight, I had never ever ventured here before. Now I am, and I absolutely have no idea what I should be doing here. But not to worry, I'll be there before anyone realises am an amateur. Till then....