Ramblings of Me
Blank Stare? Seriously? After tossing and turning the whole night and having quite lots to say last evening! Wow. You surely have done a number on me.
I can't believe the blubber mouth in me insists on staying in the background.
Turned a new year yesterday and with it am hoping i turned i new leaf. This time for real.
Been saying this over and over and over and yet i keep going back to the same old things.
Unresolved arguments, silent treatments, three weeks of no communication and then just when my
wounds seem to be healing you show up.
and the cycle starts all over again. Well, this year I plan and I want things to be very different.
"Juliet has left the Balcony"
This Romeo and Juliet thing has come to an end. I didnt know i had it in me to put an end to it.
But I do. and am taking that power and using it.
I know what it feels like to be in a normal relationship. I had that for 5 months before you
came in with your grand plans. You painted a picture so clear and so big, i Left my normal relationship
to re-paint the Grander picture with you. And what do i get, our art session didnt last four weeks!!
Even those four weeks had me and only me holding the painting brush while u were away on break. just an occasional peek to check on the progress, and then Wham!!! u didnt like it anymore.
all of a sudden I was becoming clingy and moving too fast for you.
and then again, its my fault, I should have realized that all u wanted was to have me unhappy and alone.
once again, you achieved your goal. Sad to say, i was there cheering you on.
So, here I am, like I said, do what u think makes u happy. am doing just that.
You can count on me not being ya back up, or the girl u call whenever u r bored.
Late night phone calls after 2 weeks of absence are a no no.
You know the kids are in bed by 9pm. So, it does not make sense calling to talk to them
at 11 pm on my mobile.
this is where it all stops.
Today, Now.
Cheers
I can't believe the blubber mouth in me insists on staying in the background.
Turned a new year yesterday and with it am hoping i turned i new leaf. This time for real.
Been saying this over and over and over and yet i keep going back to the same old things.
Unresolved arguments, silent treatments, three weeks of no communication and then just when my
wounds seem to be healing you show up.
and the cycle starts all over again. Well, this year I plan and I want things to be very different.
"Juliet has left the Balcony"
This Romeo and Juliet thing has come to an end. I didnt know i had it in me to put an end to it.
But I do. and am taking that power and using it.
I know what it feels like to be in a normal relationship. I had that for 5 months before you
came in with your grand plans. You painted a picture so clear and so big, i Left my normal relationship
to re-paint the Grander picture with you. And what do i get, our art session didnt last four weeks!!
Even those four weeks had me and only me holding the painting brush while u were away on break. just an occasional peek to check on the progress, and then Wham!!! u didnt like it anymore.
all of a sudden I was becoming clingy and moving too fast for you.
and then again, its my fault, I should have realized that all u wanted was to have me unhappy and alone.
once again, you achieved your goal. Sad to say, i was there cheering you on.
So, here I am, like I said, do what u think makes u happy. am doing just that.
You can count on me not being ya back up, or the girl u call whenever u r bored.
Late night phone calls after 2 weeks of absence are a no no.
You know the kids are in bed by 9pm. So, it does not make sense calling to talk to them
at 11 pm on my mobile.
this is where it all stops.
Today, Now.
Cheers
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