Memoirs

Blank Stare? Seriously? After tossing and turning the whole night and having quite lots to say last evening! Wow. You surely have done a number on me. I can't believe the blubber mouth in me insists on staying in the background. Turned a new year yesterday and with it am hoping i turned i new leaf. This time for real. Been saying this over and over and over and yet i keep going back to the same old things. Unresolved arguments, silent treatments, three weeks of no communication and then just when my wounds seem to be healing you show up. and the cycle starts all over again. Well, this year I plan and I want things to be very different. " Juliet has left the Balcony " This Romeo and Juliet thing has come to an end. I didnt know i had it in me to put an end to it. But I do. and am taking that power and using it. I know what it feels like to be in a normal relationship. I had that for 5 months before you came in with your grand plans. You painted a picture so clear and so bi...

I know somethings may not make sense to you right now.... I get the feeling most of the time... Oh well, we'll have to take it one sweet little step at a time. No matter how painful these steps might turn out, we'll take them and we'll get there. was telling your sisters about you yesterday...Well, Lexi aka Azzaria could not imagine there is a baby in the mummy's buto buto. Taira kinda understood, and now its no longer mummy's big buto, its baby. So, son, i'd like to call you Adel. How does that sound to you? We'll discuss that with Dad sometime when we can. He  might be having his own idea. I love you son. I really do love you. I can't wait...oh yes i can wait. Am waiting for the day you'll come home. The day you'll teach ya sisters how to ride a bike...boys usually have a way of learning these things on their own. Make no mistake..I can ride a bike. Am just getting too old. Though we'll work something out when u come here. about that little...

Dear Son, its the 16th day May 2012. You are 21 weeks old in my womb. Meaning we have another 19 weeks to go before you can see everyone else. Am pretty much sure, you've heard voices and are wondering what's going on. My dear boy, worry not. All in good time. I can feel you kick and grumble. First thing today, i felt you stretch, well, i understand. I did over sleep too. Was a long quiet night. So, let me introduce the voices you've been hearing. The first voice you had this morning, "we go susu potty" that was ya big sister. Azzaria Alexandria Namuyimba. You come after her. She's your immediate big sister. Quite choosy and assertive. You two should hit it off big. There was another voice, "Mummy, I have pain here". That was Altairah Nalubowa Namuyimba. She's your other Big sister. Older than Azzie. This one is a caring one. Quite moody but she cares for her own. Reminds me of her Dad sometimes. There was a time when he'd go without so that ...

This is home. I've been away for what seems like eternity. Like its often said....east or west....home is best. Am loving the feel of my warm almost thread bare blanket....smells so home.....mmmmmmmhhh-how i missed the tiny ants running up the latrine wall. Home....how many years has it been? 10? 20? who knows? I lost count. Remember how i used to hide behind this same building...yes the latrine building to run away from the group heading to the village borehole for water. And now, here I am sitting again....this time not hiding from a trip to the water place....but hiding from My Beloved Grandma's cries of pain. She always looked so invincible to me....Like someone who would never die. She is not supposed to go just yet. Dear God, please here my plea. I still need her. Even when am dodging boda boda cyclists back in Kampala, or trying to close a deal that will make my boss millions richer....at the end of the day....I still need to know Jajja Flo is there somewhere and when ...

READ THIS VERY SLOWLY.... IT'S PRETTY PROFOUND. Too many people put off something that brings them joy just because they haven’t thought about it, don't have it on their schedule, didn't know it was coming or are too rigid to depart from their routine. I got to think one day about all those women on the Titanic who passed up dessert at dinner that fateful night in an effort to cut back. From then on, I've tried to be a little more flexible. How many women out there will eat at home because their husband didn't suggest going out to dinner until after something had been thawed? Does the word "refrigeration" mean nothing to you? How often have your kids dropped in to talk and sat in silence while you watched 'Jeopardy' on television? I cannot count the times I called my sister and said, "How about going to lunch in a half hour?" She would gas up and stammer, "I can't. I have clothes on the line. My hair is dirty. I wish I ...

They often say: 'what goes around, comes around' Are they right, or are they right!!!!!!!! am so infatuated with this guy, and many a time, I have actually thought, he's the one. I don't know why i can't see that am a just a means to an end. and am not the end. Well, it will not help beating myself about it, but indulge me. PLEASE!!! well, yet again, am being played, and am so gullible it hurts, all he has to do is smile. yes, we are talking Mr. Lover again. But this time, maybe I deserve it. I am seeing someone else who is madly in love with me and seeing Mr.Lover. So what goes around Sure does come around. want to cry so badly it hurts. But am not gonna do anything stupid this time. will let it pass. and life will move on. Won't even mention a word, let alone refer to it. "ndi ne Jajja wange, ne Rinah" \Those words hurt, like hell.

Sometimes we wonder why we get so unhappy. Many a time we want to blame it on someone else, Like Milli Vanilli says, 'Blame it on the rain' and Yes, it has to be someone or something else but not you. Well, here I am, very unhappy, As in Very UNHAPPY. Life sucks, as in it sucks. But one thing is for sure, am not blaming it on anyone else, Not even the rain. I got myself here and I'll have to find a way of getting out. it hurts and hurts so bad, am in love with someone I should not be in love with You know, those un available men? Guys out there talk to me. the ladies who have been there done that, please tell me what i should do. I keep telling myself, I'll wake up in the morning and voila, i won't think about him, I won't call him etc. I have done so much for this relationship and it hurts me that I just cannot treat it as something casual. It started out casually but now I can't help but feel so sad. They say, pray....I pray, I try yes I try to love Jesus ...